Summer!

So I must admit... I haven't felt so extremly lazy and relazed in a long time. It has been amazing. We kicked off the summer with the first weekend at the lake. Aside from it being extremly hot it was great! We went wakeboarding Saturday morning then ended up going to a Wizards game (the baseball team in Fort Wayne). It was fun and just something different... plus we had box seats! Sunday we went to church and had the usual of pancakes for brunch then took a nap and headed up to the cottage with Ryan's mom. Ryan and I worked the rest of the day on fixing the dock so it can be put in for the summer! We grilled some brats and made some delicious grilled garlic bread and just relaxed by the lake for the rest of the evening. Memorial day we headed to the other side of the lake for his grandpa's birthday party. It was a fun time except for all the cotton wood fluff blowing all over! After filling our little bellies we headed up to Angola to visit Zach. The weekend was great and a much needed break after all the finals from last quarter.

We kicked off our research project last Tuesday with a meeting with Dr Meneghini and Dr Buckley. We are looking at ischial screw fixation in hip replacements. I'm super excited because I think its going to be very interesting and a great learning experience. Started my training for my other job on Thrusday. After working Saturday and Sunday afternoon I don't think its gonna be too bad. Like I told my mom its doable for the summer but I don't think I could do it for the rest of my life. But it pays the bills and is gonnna allow me some extra to save so that'll be a plus.

My days are pretty relaxed around here. I get up every morning and run and workout. Shower. Then Allison and I work on research from noon to whenever then work at 5. This week though I'm on my own with the research because Allison is on a cruise so I just do my own thing til work at 5. I'm not gonna lie... I could not live by myself for a long extended period of time. Its too boring. Though sometimes it is nice because it so quiet all the time, but at otehr times you just wish you had some one to go out and do things with.

But its been nice. Church last night was amazing as usual. Anyone in Terre Haute looking for a church I suggest Maryland Community Church. There is just so much of God there you can just feel it and its amazing.

Psalm 33 and Ephesians 1 are the scripture for today. Psalm 33 says in verse 4 "The word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does." Verse  11 says, "But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations." and verse 15, "he who forms the hearts of all, who considers everything they do." And finally verse 18, "But the eyes of teh Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine." Are we, am I willing to turn my heart over to the Lord. To let him mold it and press upon it his word. To fear and love him so much to foget about my plans and live by His. I've got to admit this has been the hardest thing for me right now and I just keep reading it over and over again in his word. Its like we only want to be half Christian. But that's not what its about. Its about loving "the Lord with all your heart with all your soul with all your mind and with all of your strength." (Mark 12:30). To me that sounds like everything. Giving everything to him. And what boggles my mind even more is the fact that how could anyone not trust the one who created the entire world. Who created this earth that we live on that functions so precisely and so perfectly that the creator is obviously pure genious. Or the human body which performs some of the most amazing feats. Marathon running, triathalons and just the day to day wear we put upon it. Or the complexity of the mind. How could you not trust the one who designed something like that. But maybe when I put it into perspective like that it makes me want to follow so closly behind Him just to learn what he has in store for me if has already done so many amazing things. And maybe its not being willing to give up my own plans. What I want to see happen. But the plan for God has for me is so great that there is no way that it can measure up to my thoughts or my dreams. His plan for each one of us is so complex that it would blow our minds. And that is what I love about our God. Lord I just pray that this week that I would follow so closely behind you. Lord mold my heart into what you want it to be and forgive me for not giving it all to you. You are amazing and beyond words and just thinking about your plan for me makes me smile because I know you have great things in mind for you have already done so many amazing things. Dear Lord I thank you for this day, this week a chance to start over agian. I pray that this week would be productive and that each day I draw something more out of your word. Lord I thank you and I love you more than I can say. Amen.

Almost done... final tonight... test tomorrow... and one last final on Thrusday. Yay!

Sooooo.... it's been a while. I've been horrible this year about updating this thing. I feel bad because I like to keep things up to date.. but that hasn't happened so much. But there has been so much going on lately! The mini was awesome. Finished in 2 hours and 13 minutes.. best time yet! I want to run a marathon really bad.. but I'm not sure yet. We had our Chi Omega formal last weekend. It was amazing. Ryan and I just danced the entire night and had a blast. I love how we just do what we want and don't care if other people think we're crazy. It was fun.. and we looked cute! Paula graudated last weekend. Yay! It was fun... got to see all of the family which happens like 2 times a year anymore. Its still sad not to see them, but I'm getting used to it. It still sucks.. I'm not gonna lie.. but it happens. I'm going to be in Terre Haute all summer... yay... not. I have an internship with an orthopedic surgeon in Indianapolis and will be doing research on a hip implant piece in the Biomed lab at Rose. I'll also be working for TeleServices Direct Mon-Thurs from 5-11:30 pm and then every other Sunday. At least 60 hours of work a week... that's enough to keep a person busy. But at least I can go to the lake everyother weekend.. so that'll be good. I don't know... I'm just frustrated with some thing right now. But it happens.. and I'll get over it. I just really hate that I have to work over 60 hours a week.. and I got an internship as a sophomore.. but then a certain other person will probably only have to work like 20 hours a week and get everythign they want and I have to pay to live and everything by myself. It frustrating being forced to grow up and be an adult when I'm not ready for that yet. And I never even got a chance to just be a normal kid. It still hard sometimes that even though I know its not true.. it just feels like I get nothing from my parents anymore. I don't know.. like I said I'm frustrated with a few things right now.. and I'm kinda not looking forward to the summer. Its been a rough year academically... my grades have been good.. but it has been a ton of work. Plus woking at the ACS, being the chair of the College Relay For Life, having and exec position in Chi O... its a lot and frustrating. But I made it through. 3 finals and one test to go. Then a not so fun summer... but at least everyother weekend will be good! I don't even think my parents want me to come home until next Christmas.. yea.. that sounds fun... NOT. Ahh.. like I said a million times already.. I'm frustrated. Maybe if I get the 4.0 this quarter it'll make some difference to them.. probably not.. but oh well. I can't even explain it... oh well... it'll get better. God has provided so much already and I know that He will give me strength this summer when I'll all alone and doing nothing but working. But its gonna be a workout... work... and then work again summer. So it'll be good. Well I better get back to studying so I can actually get a good job next summer and not have to work 60 some hours a week! Love to all!

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